happy yet sad

aint this a weird feeling?? 이상하다... but i guess everyone feels the same way...
its been a long time since i last updated my blog.. but it only means that a lot happend to my life already... from a very bad past to a very pleasing beginning...

we migrated once again... at first, it was really depressing.. the thought of changing your lifestyle 360 degrees was really quite optimistic for me.. it was really hard dont u think?? but in time i adjusted to my situation. i also met some new trusted friends and enjoyed the congregation down here..

another chapter of my life is beginning.. meeting someone i never thought id get along well with was really one thing that contributes to my happiness.. but having this kind of happiness also has certain consequences... sometimes, its being apart from that person.. that's what really makes me sad.. but then again, nothing beats the happiness i feel inside.. prayer is helping me a lot with my struggles and lonliness.. and its really nice to know that the one i love is never letting go.. i just keep on holding the trust of that words...

well, im sorry for making a messy post.. please bear with me.. hope u enjoy reading..

It's Been A Long Time

wow! its been a while since i last wrote here. anyhow, im going to keep updating my blog from now on. a lot of things has changed since my last postings. expect a better me... which i really like., but ill also be posting some encouraging messages i read from time to time.. hope you read it. take care guys! til then...

DeCisIonS

Iv'e gone through a lot this past few months. Loosing someone I really love has affected me so much. I thought it would be my greatest hardship I need to overcome. But after everything has been done, after everything that happened after that experience has brought me to a lot more hardships. Now I get to choose where I wanna be, what I wanna do, why I have become who I am now. I have been advised, I have heard a lot, I have been guided and given some principles that I already knew since I was a child.

There are two things that was mentioned to me a while ago and I was asked which one will I choose.. life?? or death??.. What if I choose death?? What if I don't want to change my ways?? Am I being to selfish?? Am I not fulfilling my obligations and responsibilities of being a daughter of someone important in the society?? I feel like I'm being deprived no matter how blessed I think I already am. I have always been confused and will always be confused. Well, I think I just wanted to update something in my blog to remind me that I should decide what I really wanna do. If I'm ready to make all sacrifices for choosing either decisions.

No News Is Good News

I'm not myself today
I pissed of everyone that got in my way
Feels like there's nothing new
Feels like there's nothing clean to me
Feels like I'm not even here at all
And I never thought that I would change
I never thought I would stay the same
And any way you choose to be
I choose to be mean
Have you heard the news today
About the name who disappeared in his hate
I'm being way to mean
And I can't even save my life
It's not the way you talk
It's just the way you annoy me
It's not the way you walk
I'm being way to mean.

(+_+) pResEnt.. pAsT.. t0dAy (+_+)

Message: PRESENT
01. is your hair up:
(+_+) nope

02. is your cell phone right beside you?
(+_+) yezz

03. do you have a bf/ gf?
(+_+) am Single.. definitely no BF

04. do you miss someone?
(+_+) extremely.. huhu!

05. are you wearing makeup?
(+_+) nope.. am allergic.. i wear makeup not longer than half a day lng..

06. are you wearing chapstick?
(+_+) nope

07. are you cold?
(+_+) extremely cold.. wearing usual damit + trench coat, long boots and scarf pa.. haha!

08. are you tired?
(+_+) not really.. practically stayed sa shop and sa house..

09. are you excited?
(+_+) for tmrw.. school day nanaman! ahaha! >how plastic!<>:)

05. have you called more than 3 people today?
(+_+) nope.. poor ako.. no load..=P

06. have you IM'ed more than 3 people?
(+_+) hmm.. 1 lng ata.. naghi sakin eh.. hehe!